Food For Thought : Epiphanys and Vulnerability.

It’s always an interesting experience when you get an epiphany. It is always a great feeling when you realize that something that you were stressing about really is not that hard. I’ve learned that there really is no such thing as "maybe" when it comes to your feelings, its either a yes or a no. and when you know that it is most defiantly not a No than it must be a yes. There is nothing more to think about or "anaylize." I don’t think I need to go into further detail.
That’s just how it is. Nothing more, nothing less.

Advice that I am trying to take in and learn, its really to open up. Open up yourself to people who care about you. There is nothing wrong with that. Vulnerability is inevitable. So we must learn to deal with it and not avoid it. Vulnerability is beautiful. When you prevent yourself from opening up, you are preventing yourself from experiencing something that is potentionaly great.

So just smile, and let yourself be happy.

80th Annual Academy Awards Looks!

First off let me start by saying that "i am truly dissapointed, truly, truly, truly, ohh."(must always refer a Morrissey song! :D )
anyway... i am very dissapointed that with fashion week going on, no one wore a dress off the runway.
and they really were all to simple. nothing out of the ordinary.
although there were many who looked very beautiful.



Gown by: Oscar de la Renta Jewels by:Van Cleef & Arbels
Jennifer Garner, For me WAS THE BEST DRESSED!! i loved it. everything about it.


WORST! thats all. Tilda Swinton, ok so thats her look but that doesnot mean i need to like it. Put some makeup on PLEASE.hun, you need it! and velvet is a difficult material to wear in the firstplace by to just have a sack like that. i think she Ment to look HORRIBLE!


These were all decent looks some better than others.
Miley Cyrus in Valentino. Not bad. Age apporiate. i suppose. Dont like the hair. something less Gel-y
Penelope Cruze in Chanel by Karl Lagerfeld. I think she was very coture. i liked it. it was diffrent and she wore it well.


renne Zellweger in Carolina Herrera. I just dont like her as a person very much. Its to Chicago. marion Cotillard in Jean Paul Gaultier. SO i understand that she wants to represent her French Friends, and JPG is an amazing THEATRICAL designer. Come on now, that may work in France but not at the Oscars.

Heidi Klum in John Galliano. Shes a supermodel she's allowed to wear stuff like this. it suits her.

Ugh Jennifer Hudson... no no no. Im all for full figured women. but where something that doesnt mean that you can wear a dress by Roberto Cavalli that make your boobs look triangular!
Jessical Alba looks dazaling in this Marchesa. Shes glowing. the chifon flows off her beautifully. and the plum color really suits her skin tone.

this was one of my favorites. Katherin Heigl in escada. this is an Escada Classic! its very old hollywood. looks great on her. I love Anne Hathaway. she looks so womanly in this marchesa. Ellen Page is one of my new fav actresses. i love that she didnt conform, but this vintage dress is much to grandmotherly.
Daniel Day-Lewis and his wife. NO no . thats all i have to say.

So we all know George Clooney can wear a potato sake and still look handsome. i love him. but his little vegas coctail waitress seems sarah larson looks like a wallflower LITREALLY! it looks like curtains!

Shout out!!

ok so shout out to http://www.pandora.com/ its like soo cool! its like an xm radio type thing that plays the song/band you want! neat!

danng that thing is cool!im listining to the shins right now.ive recently began listing to more of them.i really like them
ok so the only bummer of that thing is that it allows pop ups.but its a small price to pay.

ughhhhthere are a million and one things running through my mind right now :[

life throws cruve balls at you sometimes.you wish you could understand why you feel certain ways. its just hard :[if only it could be easy.

if life was movie. a good movie, one of those indie romantic comedies. wouldnt that be great.

i wish i knew what i want. but i guess thats what makes life intresting, finding out new things about yourself.

one of the hardest things is to forgive yourself.

ive done things in my past that caused consenqences. of course.
and some of those conseqences are hard to deal with .

i think before you can let yourself be involved with anyone, you need to be comfertable with yourself. i dont think i am quite there yet.

thats something im working on.

i need to start like something productive. like meditation or yoga or something. :[

i need to be happy again
im not saying im unhappy. just...

i need to begin enjoying the present. and stop missing it because i am resenting the past or just looking foward to the future.

"All these squawking birds won't quit. Building nothing, laying bricks."

-the shins, Caring is Creepy

UGHigwtufndasuitgjknmsdf i hate feeling all jumbled up!

Fashion Week

ok so this is my pick of my favorite designers.
Betsey Johnsons, Badgley Mishka, BCBG Max Azria, Marc by Marc Jacobs to name a few of the most intelligent designers. OK handsome!! yumm. i couldnt dress a man better myself. (Marc)

marc by marc jacobs! :D its very everyday wearable.

drowwllll!! love me a guy who dresses like this!

ok so i want to rip this off of her and wear it myself!

i can definatlly see a hollywood made where this on this sundays ocars! MARK my word! Badgly mishka!

look good at a funeral anyone?

Very 70's i love nostalgia. (Betsey)

Paris?

Such a prom dress!! i must get this one. its is very yacht appropriate! :D(BCBG)

Sweater Dress anyone?

Super cute! i need this one! its so everyday. which is really refreshing to see. I love the cream color. very brunch or night dress (BCBG Max Azira)

BCBG Max Azira! ooh beautiful! its more of a feminime version of a last falls sweater dress craze

anny whoo. there will be more to come. there is just so much i can do in a day!

ANTM! is on ! cya!

public apology.

thats a cool picture huh!! JUNE 2nd 2007!!!! ME AND MORRISSEY!

and im soo so so so sorrrryyy why do come when you know it makes things hard for me when you know. oh why do you comme..

annny way. that was a morrissey song.

but, i am. i really honestly wanted to blog every day.

its really ashame i dont have much to say.

GOOODD NEWS!!

obama is ahead wooohoo. i have heard rumors, of which im not sure how true, but if they are, my hero John Edwards, (the best canidate for president, unfortuantlly not may americans can see that. cuz they are stupid. but thats besides the point. ) could maybe possible run aside obama!!! Edwards as VICE can give the world a chance to see how brilliant he is and then he could run for president!! :D lets keep our fingers crossed!!

GO Edwards!

so o yea. school is still long and i am kinda sick of it. i wasdoing really well fighting the Senioritious but i think its coming back!! like i know what im going to do with my life already so highschool just seems pointless.

cant wait to get out. im ment to do so much more.

restraints

i think of myself as a person with many opionions. so why is it that when i am asked to share one , i always fall short.
i believe in many thing s but is it that i dont know what i believe in? that is a bit disscouraging.
i beilieve in the voting process. even if your one vote, doesnt make or break and election, if you dont vote you can not complain.
i beilive that your appearnce and dressing well is very important. it says alot about who you are
i beilive that the world is filled with infinte possiblities and that with all of americas flaws, you can still make something out of yourself. with "hardwork and presperation" someone can make a comfertable life for themselves. i think that if i can get my lazy ass up and do something with my life i can really just get away for this small town feeling and live that cool "glamorous" life. i am tring to find inspiration for an art project. a worldly issue that is directly affecting me. why is that such a hard thing to figure out.
i think i am very politicaly aware. and i love fashion, but why is it that i am i supposed ashamed of what i love? i need to feel more secure with what i like and what issues are important to me.
i think the transition of trying to "find yourself" is the hardest thing. turning 18 is a hard thing. i am fighting with myparents so much rightnow because of their stubborness of not "wanting to let go " and my hardheadedness of wanting to do everything they dont want me to do.
this has helped me. i think what i know i like im not ready to share with the world in fear of being judged which is just a normal thing for all teenagegers. and now that i am becoming an adult i recognize that i am very ihbitated person.
transision.
i am going to do it on the transition of a "child/teenager" to a self assured adult.

ughh thats a load off my shoulders. thanks! (i love this thing! it helps me think!)

food for thought " you shouldnt let other people get your kicks for you" - rolling stone, bob dylan

'start of something new'

ok so i hate to refrence a High School Musical song, but thats what it is.

i will be using this Blog to update myself and those who maybe interested in my life {which i wouldnt understand why they'd be but...}

life is going to change for me soon. i can tell.

things should be heading up for me.

ill be graduating in june, starting college.

WISH I KNEW WHERE

and expanding my fashion empire. (well creating one.)

i just know i am going to make something out of myself.